i love you , boy

Sunday, March 25, 2007 ' 9:22 PM

All lectures week is over :( Time for serious studying now. Hah SA's damn fun I think! I wouldn't mind going to SAJC actually, only I'm already a member of ACJC. A lot of people from AC for first intake went into SA and was very unhappy there, but I think that's because they're already too attached to AC. Not like I don't like AC, but let's just say I have many more closer secondary school friends in SA :)

Who did I have when I first entered AC? No one. I went for my first bowling training in december, and was freaking scared that everyone will dislike me and everything, not to mention I had to experience being alone in a new environment again, just like when I first entered IJTP in sec one. Hahaha. I met the team at the Singapore Poly bowling alley, and there were Amelia, Sheryl, Lixin & Victoria. Then they just chatted with each other like in a circle way you know, facing each other. I just stood aside and soaked in the atmosphere. But really things weren't bad at all, at least they called me out when they had outings. And they talked to me during trainings. But now, things changed. Xin & Sheryl are always together, in their own world. They changed. I think everyone did. Hahaha I'm so glad Amelia is always there for me. If not I still have Joanna & Stefanie :)

aiya i'm just damn emo now lah. Shirlyn seems angry or something, I don't know.

I don't know what am I doing to me, myself, and to the people in my life. I don't reply messages on the phone. I don't study. I watch videos all day all weekend and I coop myself in my room. Sorry Jiande, Weeyong. Arrgh I don't want to care about anything anymore. Can I just not talk to anyone. Can I just not bother if people so obviously prefer others to me.

I hate myself for not doing the MBTI whatever personality test thing. AHHH I WANNA DO :((

Sorry Justine, Shirlyn, Amelia, Joanna, Xavier, Jiande, Weeyong, if you think I never did well enough my part as your friend, sorry for not being there for you when you needed me. I'm sorry.

But now, I just wanna let go. BYEBYE.

P.S. Poor Justine lost her wallet again!!! If I ever find out who is the asshole who keeps harrassing her, I am so gonna punch his/her face! (if I really dare, haha) But seriously, Justine has enough problems on her plate! So find something better to do, you sanctimonious pig! >: (

I AM SO NOT HAPPY NOW.

P.S.S. I watched TMNT with my family today! Whoohoo! It's nice :) haha AND AND MY AUNTIE CAME BACK FROM KOREA, AND SHE BOUGHT A SUPERDUPER COOOOOL ADIDAS JACKET FOR ME, HAHAHA I LOVE IT, AND I LOVE HER! :D

Okay now I must study and understand Graphing Techniques if not Mdm Shih will kill me :/

XOXO