i love you , boy

Saturday, February 28, 2009 ' 4:10 PM

#751

Listening to: The Lucky One by Au Revoir Simone

There's a heavy rain now and I'm supposed to meet annoying Yixuan in an hour at Holland. I want to buy new clothes again! Will finally be getting my pay at the end of this week, probably 6th March which is, also Results Day, or so everyone is saying. I miss taking pictures with my own camera. I don't even know where it is! I'm penniless and no one can fetch me to anywhere since my brother's out for his swimming lesson ):

And I know I've said this so many times but I really can't get enough of Grey's! :D Even though nothing can compare to Grey's second season (I swear best season ever), this season seems to be doing fine. Hahaha I miss O' Malley.

XOXO

Friday, February 27, 2009 ' 11:03 PM

#750

Listening to: When Finally Set Free - Copeland

Feel the pain teaching us how much more we can take

Reminding us how far we've come
Let the pain burn away from our hearts
We have time to start all over again

I have been hesitating to blog all day long, there's just this huge conflict I get when I'm feeling lousy. One part of me wants to word vomit here, while the other is so sick of being known as some sad, depressed emo girl. This is why I haven't been blogging properly for such a long time.

Tell me why, can people be so insensitive sometimes? Do they like the idea of being a jerk? Do they find no remorse in their selfish behavior? No wait wait, how do people actually not realise that their actions cause hurt to others?! HOW? Tell me, because I don't get these people. If you feel sorry towards someone, why do you not apologize? You don't, and, wow, oops you even do it again! (: Have a good day.

I wish I am a nicer person. Karma works in funny ways doesn't it.

Where is Wesley where is Wesley. I love his songs they make me at peace.

I really want to gorge on icecream till I burst. Another huge inner conflict in myself, to gorge myself crazy or starve till I die of pain. I actually wouldn't mind being bulimic, kinda. Kidding.

XOXO

Tuesday, February 24, 2009 ' 11:26 PM

#749

We Both Know - Ivoryline

I think this song's damn sexy. HAHA. Just wanna shout to the world IIIIIIII, AM EVERYTHING YOU'RE NOTTTTTTTTTTTT!

Fipor asked me to blog about proper stuff, but I think my life is damn boring. Let's see, I went out today with Chalet Gang for dinner. But actually the main purpose of organising it, was for us to pay Jon & Nick the money for the Black and White tickets. HAHA. Dinner was this place at Lucky Plaza where their specialty was mashed fried chicken. Okay I rate it a 3.5 out of 5, because I preferred ketchup much more with the chicken than chili. Hahaha the chili was horribly spicy, I was tricked into consuming one spoonful of chili and I really felt like exploding! My entire head was reddddddd and what's worse was the tea which smelled like... Indians. I mean no disrespect but it is the normal smell of one. I'm serious! Hahaha okay end of exciting story.

Yesterday, out with CJ gang, had dinner at California Pizza Kitchen then pooled at Lucky Plaza. Played arcade games! They had all the old-school games there and they really brought me back to my primary school days. (: I realised I really don't behave the same in front of them and the AC people. Hahaha. Mandy and I went retarded and at the end of the day, we slapped each other like 3 times each at least! Oh and we were crossing the road from Wheelock to the train station right, then there were only a few seconds left, so we had to run! But I decided to run back since I thought I didn't have enough time, but Mandy didn't know I turned back so she was still running! AND WHEN THE TRAFFIC LIGHT TURNED RED, SHE WAS STUCK IN THE MIDDLE, AT THE CURB THERE. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA. Damn funny!!! If only I had her camera I would take pictures and show the world HAHA.

On saturday, went out with part of Chinese Clique to catch Slumdog Millionaire. Awesome movie, girls will love! :D Had lunch at Billy Bombers and whoooo the cookies and cream shake was DAMN YUMMY. I am totally longing for it now! Priscilia then Gavin joined us after that, and we went to Clarke Quay and chilled at this latin bar.

Okay story's over. Goodnight.

XOXO

Sunday, February 22, 2009 ' 1:00 AM

#748

The Longest Story - Daphne Loves Derby

Far past these roads there is a place
Where all of our precious dreams remain
Someday I know
I’ll find a way
To keep myself from holding on

Stay awake with the sound of my voice
I'm restless from the silence in the air
I want to be somewhere I can see the roads
A place where everytime you breathe a wish comes true
I want to be where love is real
And memories of distant days come to life again

Inside this room, time will stand still
As long as I'm not aware of change
The world outside leaves me behind by myself
There's no mercy for those who hold on

(: I love you friends, for being here.

XOXO

Friday, February 20, 2009 ' 10:40 PM

#747

Huiting; says (10:30 PM):
i can't believe i didn't send you!
this is like one of my favourite songs everrrrrrrrr

mandy says (10:31 PM):
you like that lorh

Huiting; says (10:31 PM):
):
hahaha you want songs now not?

mandy says (10:31 PM):
dont wanna share with me

Huiting; says (10:31 PM):
WANT NOT WANT NOT
I JUST GOT NEW SONGS IM VERY HAPPY

mandy says (10:32 PM):
so rude

Huiting; says (10:32 PM):
huh

mandy says (10:32 PM):
WANT NOT WANT NOT
whats that man
I WANT I WANT

Huiting; says (10:32 PM):
HAHAHAHAHAH
eh you don't scare me please
you damn scary
hahahaha

mandy says (10:32 PM):
HAHA WHAT
YOU THE RUDE ONE

Huiting; says (10:32 PM):
don't send you already lah ):

mandy says (10:32 PM):
CAPS ME FIRST

Huiting; says (10:32 PM):
HAHAHA

mandy says (10:32 PM):
OI

Huiting; says (10:32 PM):
I WAS EXCITED WHAAAAAT

mandy says (10:32 PM):
I TOLD YOU I WANT I WANT
I WANT NOWWWWWWWW
SEND ME NOWWWWWWWW

Huiting; says (10:33 PM):
HAHAHAH
SHIT IM LAUGHING LIKE CRAZY
HAHAHAHAH
JUST CHOKED ON MY SALIVA HAHAHAHAHAH

XOXO

Thursday, February 19, 2009 ' 9:49 PM

#746

XOXO

Monday, February 16, 2009 ' 10:43 PM

#745

Listening to: Simple Life by Carolina Liar

I realised my blog hasn't had pictures since forever, so here's ONE:

Valentine's with the girls (:

Today, after work, I was on the train and I got a corner seat so I was happily sleeping and nodding away. I think my classmates know how unglam I look when I sleep, especially ON THE TRAIN. Anyway! There was this moment I jolted from my sleep because I received a text. THEN, this fat dude pointed his pudgy finger at me and LAUGHED. Grrrrrrr, if I was more awake I would smack him. >: (

Okay actually I came here to blog about this only. HAHA. Btw I am very broke and I think I'm going to give tuition. I think, think only. Don't laugh at me okay, my primary school math very pro.

Someone thinks I should have more faith in others. Do you deserve it? (:

XOXO

Thursday, February 12, 2009 ' 10:19 PM

#744

Beautiful Seed - Corrinne May

I can fill the darkness with just one flash of light
Break the the silence with just one word
Warm the fire-started revolution
One that can save the world

On the steps of Washington sprinkled like confetti
Thousands of people sing "We shall overcome"
The preacher shouts: "Let freedom ring"
He gave his life for what he believed

You can be a witness
You can be a prophet
You can make the whole world believe
Break the strongest fortress
Change the way the world thinks
You can build a bridge where foes can meet
Hope for the future
Shout it, don't whisper
Cause dreams are what we make them to be
There is hope in every heartbeat
Tiny as it seems
You're a beautiful seed

She's a pastor's daughter
She's only 16
But her heart and her belly are breaking at the seams
Her boyfriend blames her
He wants to pay for the doctor to wash it away

As she lays in the hospital
A Christmas choir is singing
About a child in a manger, fragile and small
"Unto us is born a Savior"
She looks at her baby and cries as she sings him a lullaby

Every hope, every power lies in the heart of a seed that flowers
Intertwined all across the land
We're all seeds in the maker's hand

I think this is a really beautiful song, how ironic that I got it from Shalom the bimbo. Thanks girl.

Everyday, If Your Heart's Not In It gets me started and the rest of the songs help me get through the day. I'm really tired... Only recently have I looked to the skies, looking and begging for a sign. Is it my heart which has hardened, or is it my humanity, for I find myself not crying for anything anymore. Life is one big question mark. I would like to chase my dreams, and I can start, by having enough sleep everyday. Goodnight.

XOXO

Monday, February 09, 2009 ' 9:56 PM

#743

Probably one of the fondest and memorable memories I have of the precious moments the class did something together:

I never imagined this could happen to any friend of mine at such a young age, and during the short hour we were standing there, singing hymns, I felt exactly like what Mandy said, everything was so unreal, horribly unreal. Yet the painful truth was right there. Dear Jaclyn, always the sincere and supportive friend. Although I didn't know her very well, I remember she was always smiling and nice and everything. May God give her family the strength to pull through.

Coincidentally, I just found out that Justine and Jaclyn were churchmates! A horrible way to find out, but sometimes it really is a wonder how everyone is linked everywhere.

Anyway, I thought this was one of the worst weekends of my life. Haven't shed so many tears in a while, and I really hope I won't have to, ever again.

XOXO

Sunday, February 08, 2009 ' 9:47 AM

#742

A horrible end to a night, but an even worse start to a morning...

Rest in peace.

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This is a guitar instrumental version of Fall Out Boy's Golden. This is another song I really like, and I think the guitar version is less sad, but still pretty.

No singing here, but here's the lyrics all the same.

How cruel is the golden rule?
When the lives we lived are only golden-plated
And I knew that the lights of the city were too heavy for me
And though I carry karats for everyone to see

And I saw God cry in the reflection of my enemies
And all the lovers with no time for me
And all of the mothers raised their babies
To stay away from me

Tongues on the sockets of electric dreams
Where the sewage of youth drown the spark of my tears
And I knew that the lights of the city were too heavy for me
And though I carry karats for everyone to see

And I saw God cry in the reflection of my enemies
And all the lovers with no time for me
And all of the mothers raised their babies
To stay away from me

And pray they don't grow up to be me

XOXO

Thursday, February 05, 2009 ' 1:22 AM

#741

If Your Heart's Not In It - Westlife

I miss the age of boybands, and the songs ):

XOXO

Sunday, February 01, 2009 ' 12:49 AM

#740

Hellooo! Song time song time! Aren't you tired of my sad songs? :D
Today's a happy one, which is really addictive! Hahaha of course my dear Stefanie Chen Shuwen sent it to me, she always sends happy songs, which I amazingly like to listen to, even though I usually dislike happy songs! (: I sent it to Tessa too and she also says it's addictive. Go listen!

Guilty Pleasure - Cobra Starship -

Come on everyone, let's shout SHUT UP! CAUSE WE, WON'T STOP! :D

XOXO