Listening to Justine's iPod made me addicted to this song all over again.

"Shape Of My Heart" by Sugababes and Sting. (Although Justine's one has Craig David in it too.)(Sting did the original version.) I love the lyrics especially, it's so meaningful. I want to post them here. The verses below are Sting's original lyrics.

He deals the cards as a meditation
And those he plays never suspect
He doesn't play for the money he wins
He doesn't play for respect
He deals the cards to find the answer
The sacred geometry of chance
The hidden law of a probable outcome
The numbers lead a dance

I know that the spades are swords of a soldier
I know that the clubs are weapons of war
I know that diamonds mean money for this art
But that's not the shape of my heart

He may play the jack of diamonds
He may lay the queen of spades
He may conceal a king in his hand
While the memory of it fades

And if I told you that I loved you
You'd maybe think there's something wrong
I'm not a man of too many faces
The mask I wear is one
Those who speak know nothing
And find out to their cost
Like those who curse their luck in too many places
And those who fear are lost

Okay, replies!

Rachel: Hello Cheong! I miss you so much too! I can't wait for Island Creamery! :D :D

Felicia: Thanks Fipor you're the best :D AND, I'M THE COOLEST.

Pam: Pammm don't think I don't know you and Justine whole day make fun of me! Can't a girl sleep with peace and dignity? IS IT SUCH A SIN TO SLEEEEEP. HUH HUH HUH.

Justine: Grrr, woof. Hahaha yay swimming swimming!

Mandy: I missss Oeniiiiii ): I doubt you'll read this in time, for all the best for your chemistry paper tomorrow (: I still have to slog it out for 4 more days, I'M SO DIEADEDEDEDEDED FOR MATHEMATICSZSEWSC!!! After you told me to stop watching Ugly Betty, I actually didn't watch it at all! Am I good or what? :D I'm studying quite hard, NOW. Like only, NOW. And, HAHAHA YOU'RE SO FUNNY. Falling asleep in church? Imagine if you really fell forward! How embarrassing, haha! I want Island Creamery with you and Cheong soooooon!

Stefanie: What's family for? Haha, love you back :D

ECONS PAPER TOMORROW. I STUDIED EVERYTHING TODAY. AS IN, EVERYTHING FOR ECONS. BUT I THINK CAN'T REMEMBER, OH GOLLY.

TRATRATRATRATRATRATRATRATRATRATRATRATRTARA NOT STUDYINGGGG NOT STUDYING NOT STUDYING NOT STUDYING NOT STUDYING NOT STUDYING NOT STUDYING WANTS SHOPPING WANTS UGLY BETTY DOES NOT DESERVE NO NO NO NO NO ONOONO O OONONONNONOO NONNONO NO ONE BLOGGING NONO NOOOO RETAIN TAIN RETAINNN NOO NOO NOO NOO NOO NOO NOOO MAGHTTHH CHEMMM GPNNONO ONOOONO

Hello, I am studying, at a very very slow pace I don't think I can make it you know people always say they are scared they cannot finish studying I tell you I am the one who is scared I can't finish studying and do you know why no you don't but I do because I have been spending so much freaking time on chemistry and I have been neglecting my other subjects but obviously that knowledge itself doesn't spur me on enough to speed things up but instead I have been watching Ugly Betty and studying at the same time the last hour which makes me study even slower well you know what is called not finish studying that is not starting on mathematics and economics at all even though my econs paper is on monday!!!!!!!1

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG.

I'll make this a quickie! Okay basically I don't really have much to blog about? School's like all boring and I can't take this any longer, I really felt like I was dying during lectures and all. I haven't asked my parents if I can skip school on Thursday, but I hope they'll let me. If I really do, then probably only Titi and Tricia will be in school, hahaha.

I stayed back in school today for the CCAAB briefing, regarding camp for all captains, vice-captains and all. So we're gonna have this camp at Diary Farm in start of November! DIARY FARM!!!!!! THAT'S LIKE ONLY A FIVE MINUTE WALK FROM MY OLD HOUSE.

I'm so sad, I miss my house so much ): ): ): ): ):
I tell you, the pain of losing my house is indescribable. You wouldn't understand if you haven't gone through this kind of separation from a home you've been so super duper attached to.

Sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad

Okay anyway, today in school, many people were really sad and emo, like Justine, Pam and Tessa too. My dear girls, cheer up okay! Justine, my poor poor girl ): You deserve so much better, I just wish he can wisen up and appreciate you the way he should be, he doesn't know how much he's missing out on! It isn't often we see you all sad and down, you know you're always like the sunshine girl who embarrasses herself and make all of us laugh like mad?

And Pam, I know some people can be really big asses. But we've to try not to let all of them affect our days so badly, or else it wouldn't be worth living, would it? Okay so you have the bad apples on one side, but on our side where the grass is always greener and the cows are fatter and the people (AHEM, US) are always cuter and cooler, we will be there for you! :D

I mean like Felicia being all childish is very amusing and it always tickles mah coolio ribs, and Justine laughing at EVERYTHING and making everyone laugh AT her, is very very therapeutic for a soul. Of course, best treatment is to look at me (: I'll brighten your day! Justine you can look at me all the time, you can pretend I'm a mirror then you'll be happy because my face is so coolioz.

Haha, oh myyy I hate the fact that promos are next week and I'm not anywhere near ready ):

Well well, I'm amazed how much revision Felicia can complete in a day. I feel resigned already. Not that it helps that I'm not putting in as much effort as I should be. Siannnn.

And, I'm so pissed off by the anonymous pigs at Pam's blog. What the hell do they know anyway. They're like big, hairy houseflies buzzing around all the time, doing a damn good job at annoying the hell out of everyone. I want to throw a torchlight at their smug fat faces. It kills.

Dear Pam, hope you're really much better now. You don't deserve all this shit, not when you've put in so much heart into everything. I'm behind you more than ever. Don't fret okay, because me and my little friends will be there for you, I give you my word, and I know they do too. Because I know you'll do the same for any one of your friends, and that's something I really love about you. Okay, now that sounded quite lesbian. Anyway, about the anonymous taggers, seriously, they have nothing better to do. Don't worry, they can go join their circle of useless walking beings who waste the earth's resources and feed on other's misery, what losers. Hah, with that sort of character they just don't know what's good for them. They won't ever have the kind of friends you have.

If I sounded worked up, and just a sliiiiight bit vulgar, that's... just too bad. Everyone has limits, and those people pissed me off. I won't be as nice as I probably used to be, because I realised, if we're too nice, we get taken advantage of, and I'm not going to let that happen to me now, what I've tasted is pretty much enough.

I want to not sleep and studyyyy all the way.

Written report today almost drove everyone mad. So many things screwed up in our faces, but amazingly we still managed to make things work.

Firstly, the file Elvin sent to be burnt as a soft copy turned out to be a wrong file. Then after the resend, Tessa opened it in the computer lab only to realise that it's also different from our printed WR! We decided to change some parts of our hard copies, because some points contrasted each other and made our idea look bad. So we reprinted a few pages, reburnt a CD. We wanted to punch holes and add our edited parts into our WR, but because Tessa binded our WR not in school, we were told school's binding had more holes than outside services, we were totally crushed. It was one setback after another I tell you. We decided to reprint everything to rebind, and when the aunties in the photocopying room heard about that, they took pity on us and said they could help us by adjusting the orientation of their hole puncher! :D Yay they're such nice people! So we got it done, at last.

Tuition after school today. Sorry Fipor for not taking 74 in the end! ): I promise next time k! (: Justine's so annoying. She keeps badmouthing me in front of our tutor and makes herself look good. Grrrr. Everyone knows I'm cooler than you Justine, don't bother fighting with me (;

So I studied at Justine's place till about 9pm, then I went back. Was so sweaty though, ew! Hah, I kept threatening to throw orange peels at her beause she was irritating me. So many papers to do, so little time! OMG math chemistry and econs should go die, they're so difficult! ):

ZOMG, what a tiring day! Firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEAR BIRDIEE yesterday! :D

I skipped the extra math lesson after physics lecture just to celebrate Stef's birthday with her class and some of the bowlers, and you know what those clowns did? Tim Han smashed some cake on Stef, and they practically ran around the whole void deck, bleachers etc, trying to smash cake on each other. Amelia Rachel and others joined in the run too, haha how immature! Xin and I were being civilised and elegantly tried to cut the cake before the clowns ruined it all, but the birthday bird just had to smash some cake on our faces too ): So oily, ew! My hair was ruined for the rest of the day, how sad.

After school, out with Bird, Amelia, Xin, Sheryl, Elvin, Joanna, Kenneth to Raffles City to have Thai Express for lunch. Yum, 3118 is awesome! I ate some of Amelia's phat thai lookalike thing too, because she couldn't finish hers. But I think I ate too much, felt like puking later ):

Ken went to back to school, and the rest of us went to town. We studied, while Sheryl accompanied Stef to buy water guns. One by one they left, so there was only me Xin Amelia.

Anyway it was freezing cold, even though I wore TWO jackets, I still felt like I was sitting in a freezer. I have no idea how Xin managed to sit in there for like, 2 hours, with only one jacket covering her arms. Amelia and I went outside, much better. Later in the night we studied in Coffee Bean instead, and Xin & I went home at about.. 9pm?

I would say it was rather productive, although I spent 4 hours on one chapter. But I take a long time to study everything anyway, and I pretty much understand organic chemistry now, so yeah I guess it's worth it. (:

And today, wow long and tiring day. Tessa's so stressed up! Sorry dear, for making you do so much work! If you need help, just tell me, I promise I'll try my best! No facebook around PW anymore I swear! Everyone's pretty much stressed up right now, you guys hang in there, it's just 2 more weeks. Which is, OKAY QUITE BAD OMGGGGG, I think I'm the slowest in revision in the entire class you know, I'm so worried, but I just can't rush enough! Just like now, I'm blogging when I obviously have more important tasks at hand, like STUDYING CHEMISTRY.

Arrgh, oh yes, I stayed back in school today to study! Studied in the hub with Yixuan, Titi, Jeco, and Anthony Chee came to study for a while. I have to revise my revision scheme, it's very very bad.

Okay, signing off now dudes.

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY JOAN CHER! LOVE :D

School today was fun, something I haven't felt in a long time. My dear friends, if I really irritate you too much, I'm really sorry ): Don't let my insensitivity get to you, sometimes my jokes go too far, but I really say stuff just to irritate people, haha!

I haven't been myself for quite some time, I feel quite detached from the rest of the world. I know I have emo times and I make my friends worry, or even annoyed. But, I reckon it's just the stress getting to me? I hope this emo side can go away soon!

40 chapters, 4 per day? GG.

Kahhwee: I tripped at least 4 times in 2 days. Haha. No I was at the bowling booth during open house for almost the entire day! I didn't see you tooooooooo ): And, hahaha you're so funny! I lazy what, cannot ah. Why didn't you come today huh! ): ): ):

Tessa: Haha, I know, maybe I'll stay back in school to study this Thursday (:

Stefanie: Whoohoo, 2 more hours eh.

Pam: Awww, you smile more too okay? I like your laughter (so much better than your middle finger), haha don't you think the small kids are so retarded, especially Justine & Felicia! Heeeee we make your school days so fun, aren't we the coolest classmates! :D I'm behind you Pam, for everything. Hold on tight, you got a good catch. Your letters to each other are soooo sweet. BUT. The sweetest, still, is yours truly. Heee! (:

Haven’t you heard I’m stuck on a verse
I’m stuck on a boy who fills me with joy
I knew I was wrong to jump straight on into
This picture so pretty but he is so pretty to me

And he doesn’t know just how far I would go
Just to kiss him, he doesn’t know how I pine

So I’ll make whirlpools and watch him sparkle
And we’ll make love make magic

And haven’t you heard I’ve fallen headfirst
And he loves me so we’re two in a row
Just look in his eyes they’re blue as the skies are
Picture so pretty but he is so pretty to me

So I’ll make whirlpools and watch him sparkle
And we’ll make love make magic

But I couldn’t tell you
Just how long it takes you
Cause words don’t make
What I make with him

Haven’t you heard I’m stuck on a verse
I’m stuck on a boy who fills me with joy
I knew I was wrong to jump straight on into
This picture so pretty but he is so pretty to me

A sudden urge to change the blogskin, so here I am.

Haven't been blogging lately, cause I haven't had the mood to. Don't bother asking me how much I've revised, I'll just reply curtly with a "nothing".

Thank you friends, for being concerned on Friday. My moodswings were acting up again, I don't know, it happens ever so often. It's just, the small things that happen keep piling up, one single event triggers the shutdown of my socializing system, till I don't want to interact with anyone, at all.

Pam Tan, I'm very touched by your dedication on your blog to me! Thank you so much, you don't know how glad I am to have you as a friend. You may look anti-social and bitchy all, hahaha, but I know you're still an awesome person who will stand up for your friends, and not be fake about it. I'm not stressed about my work, not anymore. You should see what revision I've done. Arrgh, I hate this topic. Talk to you in school darling! :D

My dad is happier these days. I'm happy. When I'm all up and energized at the bleachers, you know I had a good travel to school. Usually my dad doesn't say a word to me in the car, but when he does strike up a conversation, I'm amazed how much joy I feel when I walk down the pavement to school. I love my parents, but why am I being so unfilial.

Pictures from 7 Sept, day before Open House.
Most are from my camera, some from Amelia's. Hers are super bright so it shouldn't be a problem differentiating hers.















After Holland V with Xin and Kenneth for lunch, I went to Xin's house. Changed and met Amelia Sheryl Elvin at Lido to watch I Know Who Killed Me. I tell you, the show is so sick and gruesome in its own way, and it has lots of loopholes. I was so unsatisfied and traumatised at the end of the thing.

Went to Sheryl's house after that, had dinner at Forture outside her place, where Stef joined us. She was telling us about her weird theory of Piok. The hidden alphabet after Z. Haha. And we talked about other hilarious stuff about her dad, I couldn't stop laughing! Mahjong at Sheryl's room for only like 3 rounds, Amelia left, then Elvin, then Stef and I.

Today, I didn't manage to complete Econet on Sunday so I had to finish it up in school today. Long story, by the time I finished (with the help of Justine Felicia Tessa etc) it was already 5.10pm, long past the 4.30pm deadline. But I found Ms Cadence Wong at the STI so I handed it up to her. And she was like, "why so early?" Hahahah, oops. At least she didn't scold me.

Had a laughing fit with Justine while walking to the bus stop because she was singing Cupid's Chokehold, and at one part she just totally ruined the whole song by attempting the sound. Next time anyone's sad, we're gonna sing the song, guaranteed laughter! :D

Eh, I'm on the last episode of GA already, omg this season's really quite sad ah. Thatcher is so mean to Meredith! D: The cast of GA are brilliant, the way they carry out their speech, it's so real and full of deep emotion. I never knew a TV drama could have this much capacity to bring out a story with such full force. Am I even making any sense here? Whatever, Grey's Anatomy is the most awesome show everrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!11111111111

OMGGGGG SANDRA OH CRYING MADE ME CRY NON-STOP, I CAN'T TAKE THIS, WHYYYY. I think it's because of the faggot incident, but yeah. Still, devastating ): ): ):

I think songs by Kate Walsh are really awesome.

I'm watching Grey's Anatomy now, on episode 22/23. Yes I'm watching both of them at the same time. Season 3's very reflective I guess. And the songs are seriously, beautiful. Haha, I'm also watching Simpsons while waiting for the episodes to load. Talk about multi-tasking.

When I wake up tomorrow I'm going to chiong and do my Econet.

Open house today was boring. Sitting for almost 8 hours in a cold, noisy hall doesn't do much good for me. Ugly Betty on Stef's iPod was great though.

I'm going to make a change for the better.

...but I still won't stop watching my videos. No one can stop me!!!

// 2041 hrs.

Oh my, do you know, A LOT, and I mean A LOT of TV dramas are going to be out this month. I went to compile a list of dramas to watch after promos, and I discovered many shows have their next season premiere on the 20 something of Sept. How exciting!

17 September: Prison Break S3
24 September: Heroes S2
27 September: CSI S8, Grey's Anatomy S4, Ugly Betty S2
28 September: Ghost Whisperer S3
30 September: Desperate Housewives S4, Brothers and Sisters S2

2 January 2008: One Tree Hill S4
Feb 2008: Lost S4

I don't watch half of them, but, I plan to. Okay, now back to reality ):

I forgot to mention this, but the pictures I took at Yixuan & Cat's birthday celebration last Sunday? They're all gone ): I don't know what happened. They just disappeared from my memory card one day, I never got to upload them. Luckily I wasn't the main photographer, but I took quite a few scandalous pictures and I was so itching to show! ): ):

Physics tuition today was so fun, this is how our chemistry tuition should be like, Justine! ): Lixin and Amelia did up the bowling board today. Thanks guys, I'm really very thankful! I doubt I could have settled everything by myself by today if you guys didn't offer. (:

Went to school for the econs mock test on market structure, and I think I got the market structure wrong, AGAIN. This time I wrote monopolistic competition, but Elvin wrote oligopoly. And during consultation today, Ms Cadence Wong hinted strongly that it's oligopoly, so sad. Consultation with Stef and Elvin was really fun, I feel smarter today! :D

Hahaha Elvin and I kept "star-star-star"ing Stef. She how tight with ****** huh! Damn funny. I took the MRT home with birdieeee today. And I met Gabby at the bus-stop. Cool, considering that I met her a few days ago at another bus-stop at night, when I went to some marketplace with Justine. She's so feminine now, haha! Gabby's so cute. She used to ALWAYS wear her black shirt and berms, only. This is what a JC does to you.

And, only 3 pictures taken today.




Okay, replies to tags:

Fipor, Justine, Melly, Jiayi, Stefanie, Pam: Thank you friends, that's why I love you! :D

Stefanie: I want to go to ******'s place to chillax too (: Haha! Yes I so need the suntan, and I totally cannot wait to watch Desperate Housewives!!!

Fipor: Do you want me to take down the pictures? You look nice you know! (:

Pam: I know it's kind of ironical that right after I ask you to cheer up and all, then I go into emo state, right? Hahaha. Yes I meet Justine and Felicia during holidays! Justine everyday, because of tuition and all. (Felicia only once ):) I agree, our sad sad lives ): Our schedule how packed, want to meet up also so difficult. Haha remember to date me after promos Pam! Jem is going away, AGAIN? Ask him to take care okay, read your blog about him losing 8kg. I know I'm stressed too, even though I don't seem to be able to allocate my time very efficiently. Hah. Yup I didn't go to Jeco's thing, I'm so sorry, I really wanted to go! But I had tuition and all. Wow what a nice long reply to you. Take care girl, hang in there! (:

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