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Monday, March 30, 2009 ' 11:56 PM

#761

Wreck of the Day (acoustic) - Anna Nalick

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And the light's always red in the rear-view
Desperately close to a coffin of hope
I'd cheat destiny just to be near you
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And I'm thinking 'bout calling on Jesus
'Cause love doesn't hurt so I know I'm not falling in love
I'm just falling to pieces

And if this is giving up then I'm giving up
If this is giving up then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love

And maybe I'm not up for being a victim of love
All my resistance will never be distance enough

I'm back to posting songs in every entry. Say hello to me. Why hello to you too.

Met Makmak at MOE because my babyyy collected my PQ from Mdm Ling for me, and met Cheong at NUS to submit our supporting documents. She accompanied me to my shop and chatted with me for one hour plus even though she was hungry and sick. Love you Cheongy!!! (: Get well soon and I'll see you on wednesday!

"Doesn't matter how tough we are, trauma always leaves a scar. It follows us home, it changes our lives, trauma messes everybody up, but maybe that's the point. All the pain and the fear and the crap. Maybe going through all of that is what keeps us moving forward. It's what pushes us. Maybe we have to get a little messed up, before we can step up."
- Alex Karev in Grey's Anatomy S5E19: Elevator Love Letter

XOXO

Sunday, March 29, 2009 ' 11:54 PM

#760

Listening to: The Boy's Gone by Jason Mraz

Well I suppose we'll all make our judgement calls
We'll walk it alone, stand up tall, then march to the fall

This, one of my old songs that I've suddenly started listening a lot to recently. Don't you think the tune is so beautiful? It's like, perfect. Perfect for everything, anything. I love it.

Work has officially ended for me. For a while. Oh, actually I mean less than one day. Today I realised that I've been, and will be, working for 13 days straight. Starting from last Sunday, I worked every single day, all the way till this coming Friday at least. Cheongsam, old admin, cheongsam, new admin. Isn't my life exciting? I'll miss the cute malay boy who calls me "gorgeous". How cute, the only place where I felt loved. Kidding, but life was good there.

Very thankful to Makmak Tessa & Yx who visited me during work yesterday, and even helped me entertain an annoying customer. Thank god for them. They really help me through my toughest times. (: Cineleisure has the new BISHIBASHI MACHINE!!!! Yx & I played played played, super fun but we got all the difficult challenges. ): Played photohunt too, and now I know why her high score on Spot The Difference is so low. SHE SUCKS. There were a few rounds she just sat there while I spotted all 5 differences. HAHA. Dota nextttt then L4D! I felt super happy after that. I love playing games so superduper much I swear I have the mentality of a boy.

Goodbye Cliffy, have a safe trip! Some L4D when you come back! (:

XOXO

Saturday, March 28, 2009 ' 12:55 AM

#759

I'll bring this song to my dreams tonight.

XOXO

Monday, March 23, 2009 ' 11:00 PM

#758

Listening to: Tisbury Lane by Mae

Credits to Xiuru. (:

Please don't give up when it's easy
Don't you know that me and Jesus will cheer you on?
He's the only one who will be constantly everything you need

I'm actually still working at my administrative assistant job till this coming Friday. I extended my contract two weeks longer because I have been spending far too much money recently (Yes Tessa I know now, I spend money so easily!).

Last weekend, I went for both the NTU & NUS open houses with Mandy, Tessa Makmak Yixuan & Sam respectively. I thought that the talks and everything totally didn't benefit me, except maybe the nursing one. Until now I still haven't decided what courses to apply for. What a joke.

After the NUS open house, while Makmak had to leave for dinner, Yx Tessa Sam readily agreed to accompany me to the Charles & Keith warehouse sale even though they wanted to go to the IT Fair at first. I was very touched! (: You cannot imagine my excitement when I saw shoes at $9 so cheeeeap! But, I only bought a nude pair because most of them look ugly. There were nicer ones at much higher prices, of course. I bought myself a totally cute bag!! Very proud of myself because I found it buried under a stack of inferior bags. (: They are all inferior compared to MINE. Heehee. I slung it on my arm and asked the three if they thought I looked cute. You know when you ask people these kind of questions, you expect them to roll their eyes and insult you. Instead, they just stood there and nodded their head in all seriousness!!! I was amazed, truly amazed. HAHA. After witnessing that miracle, of course I had to get it. Only $19.90. (: Oh, bought a pretty white belt too, only $3 (sale price $5) because it was the last piece and had a stain somewhere, but still pretty and worth it!

To end off the perfect day, we went to Chompchomp for dinner! Had stingray, lala, sambal kangkong, carrot cake, chicken wings & sugarcane juice. The food was so scrumptious, Yixuan & I were the happiest girls that night, and so was my tummy Bobby.

I should summarize the rest of my week. Besides the fun and games, my pocket is like a crater now. Dined at three or four places where I had to spend $20+ on food alone, each. ): Plus all the shopping I did... Think I spent $200 or so!

1) Monday, took half day leave and met Amelia & Clifton in town, before going down to OCC to visit our juniors at bowling camp in the evening. Had a good time catching up with the two jokes. (: I bought a new pair of jeans at F21 for only $33! :D When Clifton, Javier & I went to the bowling alley, all the old memories came back and we realised how much we truly missed the sport. I guess if I never DSA-ed, I would have ended up in SAJC. How different my life would be.

2) Tuesday, Bukit Timah Saddle's Club with Yixuan Christina Steven Enshen Sampson. I had some spicy pasta, can't remember the exact name. Food was good, except the disgusting Blue Cheese on Mushroom appetizer. It felt like I was eating vomit. Played L4D at cineleisure after that. Obviously I played with the girls since the boys thought they were too good for us. We were such losers you know!!! We were stuck at this place for at least fifteen minutes because I didn't realise that you were supposed to shoot the gasoline tank to clear the way to the next area. Anyway, the two lousies gave up and abandoned me to play by myself because they were dizzy already. Haha! When I finally made it to the next area, I was so proud of myself until I got killed by the Tanker, twice. ):

3) Thursday, Timbre with Carey Karen Andy Gavin Shawn Weeyong. THE FOOD WAS AWESOME. I must have ate half a pizza all by myself because I was starving and it was just, sooooooo good. I ordered Pink Tulip, a mocktail, which tasted just like a Shirley Temple. Then! I ordered Timbre Wings which were so so yummy! Totally wanna go there soon again just to eat. We missed the band because we wanted to leave earlier to play LAN. Oh, saw SA7 there too! No LAN & no L4D in the end because Paradiz was packed. One of the shops were filled with army boys. You could see whole rows of baldies playing. Another shop was half-filled with girls playing L4D. How awesome are we, girls?

4) Friday, took half day leave again! Had buffet lunch at Cocoa and ate till Bobby was about to burst. Caught Watchmen after that, I'll rate it 3 stars out of 5, just for the "visionary directing". I thought the storyline was really screwed. Too gruesome for my innocent eyes. Hahaha.

5) Saturday night, Calvin's birthday dinner at Oomphaticos, a really pretty place I had never heard of before. Had yummy BBQ pork sandwich! Was too full to order anything else. Caught The Legend Of Chun-Li after with Stef Xin Calvin Enshen Yanxun, which I thought was like one of the worst movies ever. With Kristen Kreuk acting, you would expect it to be decent. But boy, Edmund Chen acted as Chun-Li's father and it felt like I was watching a Singaporean film with him on-screen. Anyway the plot was a mess. After the end of the show, I still didn't know what was happening. The lines were stupid and cheesy, and the fighting scenes were just lame. Oh and another thing, there weren't subtitles even when they were speaking mandarin & german or whatever. How awful for the boys, haha. L4D to perk up the night woohoo! It was hilarious because the four of us kept dying at the last place where we had to wait for the helicopter, died 3 times I think. The last time, only Stef was saved. -_- Nice joke. Damn Smoker and Tanker killed me. Decided to play CS then Es & I totally owned Calvin & Stef HAHA. 30-15 or something?

Happy birthday Calvin! (:

6) Sunday, back to one day of Cheongsam work, got my two days' pay & met Karen, Priscilia & Andy. I bought two tops, sigh. But one for $10 only so cheap right!!! Hahaha. Bought cheesy curry chicken from Chippy's & had dessert at Slice. I love eating. (:

P.S. Besides the aforementioned belt, shoes, bag, jeans & two tops that I bought, I also bought two dresses and a top online. I am so ashamed of myself. Please stop me from shopping when you go out with me.

P.P.S. I typed this whole entry out when I was at work because I was bored to death. Reallyyy hate it when I have nothing to do. This beats sleeping at my table, right. I was sleeping until I realised how unproductive I look. Although the fact is, all my work is already done.

Will you come back?
It's all she wants to know
She knows she's part of the problem too
Could she let it go?
It'd take a miracle
So that's what I'm praying for

XOXO

Thursday, March 12, 2009 ' 1:14 AM

#757 What's another day

Listening to: Hurry Up And Wait by Making April

I lost this song last year when my iPod died and I got it again from Justine, love it (:

Can't believe I only have two more days of work! I quite like it there already haha. The people are really funny when they are bullshitting. Too bad I can't join in the jokes since my chinese is so bad, and anyway I feel paiseh too, since all of them are so much older than me. Scary how they bitch stab their rival department though. But then again, this is the real world. Haha AC was just a kindergarden version of the bitchy world out there. (: Again you realise that you can never depend on others!

Anyway because I am so efficient at work right (HAHA), I had nothing to do, so I was checking out the NUS courses I might be able to get into with my dismaying grades, and... SIGH ): Heavens please help me. I really want to get into a local university, but if all fails, then I would try SIM, or other institutions. Yeah that's my plan I guess.

About my efficiency, I am not kidding lor I swear I am damn efficient. Hahaha! Did I mention, in the past my company used to hire three temporary workers at a time. As in, three people would be in charge of what I do now (plus more work I suppose). Then they cut down to two. I know just before I joined the company in January, they had hired two boys (also temp) who were finishing their term already. After they left, I was left alone. ): But I got used to my job in a while so I managed to finish my work faster as weeks went by. Recently I've been having free time during the later half of the day on Wednesdays and Thursdays, sometimes Tuesdays too. Sucks when I don't have anything to do, seriously. My supervisor doesn't allow me to chat on MSN, and the computer administrator has disallowed visiting of blogs and such, can't watch movie trailers too. Really sucks! Today I even resorted to playing minesweeper on the computer. What a champion I am.

Because of my NS friends (Andy, Shaine, Shawn) who brought back their deadly tekong coughing virus, I think I caught it too! ): Damn irritating lah I am hacking away like an old woman. I don't even dare to eat potato chips and ice cream now because I really hate being sick. Not to mention incomplete recovery from my persistent cough was what made me so sick two years ago. What good times, first three months. (: And now we're looking to start a new chapter in our lives. Don't you think it is quite exciting?

Would you take what I'm giving to you or did I take this
Did we take this
Too far down
The road you know I'm scared to go down
I'm waking up anxious to lay back down
'Cause all I can do here is wait, just you wait

XOXO

Monday, March 09, 2009 ' 9:33 PM

#756

I was just playing Spot The Difference on facebook and this picture came out! OMG damn funny please I was wriggling with laughter! Funny right. Btw, Yixuan made a great suggestion! To make a group on facebook just for her and the stupid things she says. How about it man! (:

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Okay okay okay, A Level results came out on friday andddd so many of my good friends did really well, I'm super proud of them, and happy because their hard work really paid off! (: Karen with 7 distinctions, Carey & Andy with 6! :D Subsequently I couldn't remember which of my friends got how many distinctions already, but anyway, those with at least 3 distinctions, are Felicia, Tessa, Makmak, Mandy, Cheongy (ALL As except gp leh omg!), Shirsy, Xavier, Shawn, and many many more. (: As for me, some would already know that I didn't do very well. But surprisingly I'm not that upset by my results. Maybe... it's because I don't know the seriousness of it yet. But oh well! Whatever. I'm always surprised by how much or how little I get affected by different things. (: Hehheh for my results I totally had it coming. Even if I were given another 6 months, I'm not sure much of it would change. Not for economics anyway, because I freaking hate that subject. I should have taken H1 econs!

Now I'm just hoping hoping hoping for a miracle, that the courses I apply for will at least consider me since my grades are so bad. Please accept me!!!! HAHAHA.

On a side note, I went to the SMU open house on saturday and bumped into many of my lovely friends! Cheongy, Alwin, Xinfu, Shawn, Chongwee, Kenneth Chew, Jialin, and more people I recognise from school (primary, secondary & JC) but don't know them personally. Yixuan & her friend very nicely accompanied me to the Social Sciences talk which was entertaining for the period of time the German professer was talking. I laughed so much at his jokes, while that Yixuan was sitting there and stoning. -_-

I caught Role Models after, with Shaine & Steven at the cathay. Hahaha I really enjoyed this movie. (: Although the humour is mostly crude and dirty but it was really funny, doesn't mean I am dirty okay! :D Then, we played Left 4 Dead!!!! I played it for the first time and omg DAMN FUN HAHAHA. I don't understand how can there be people who don't like this kind of games, so exciting! (:

I bought sexy new earphones (in sexy bubble pink colour!!!!) because my old one spoiled. Heeheeee very very happy. :D The world is round now and I love to eat. (: Goodbye!

XOXO

Wednesday, March 04, 2009 ' 8:32 PM

#755

Angel - Sarah McLachlan

I could listen to this song forever. Love the Westlife version too.

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There's always some reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there

So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference
Escaping one last time
It's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

XOXO

Tuesday, March 03, 2009 ' 6:55 PM

#754

Listening to: Disregard the Past Few Days by Daphne Loves Derby

I don't know why I'm here again. Got a sore throat today and I'm feeling most awful... Really hate being sick ): Discovered how much smaller the world seemed to be today, very amazing (: A random note: some nerdy girl thought I was stalking her home just because we walked the same way all the way from the bus stop to the lift. It was quite hilarious since she kept turning her head back to look at me and the last part she actually RAN to the lift. HAHA. I was so -_- because, tell me, DO I LOOK LIKE A STALKER?! What the hell would I want to do to a little nerd anyway? STEAL HER BOOKS AND SELL? Hah. I'm such a fool right, I think I'm the dumbest bitch ever. Ever! Yes, indeed. I'm glad you people are still willing to be friends with a fool, a fool who knows she is a fool, but still remains a fool, because she chooses to be fooled. Learn to live with your choices my foolish friends. (:

XOXO

Monday, March 02, 2009 ' 10:55 PM

#753

Listening to: Insomnia by Craig David

Am I blogging too often now? On certain days, the computer in my room keeps dying and restarting and dying and so on. Today is one of them. On other days, the computer in the living room (which is what I'm using now) has connectivity issues which makes me unable to log onto MSN. ): I'm just listening to songs and getting irritated by Yixuan on facebook, so I decided to blog because... no one is blogging. Hahahaha. Seriously, no one is blogging! I have nothing new to read.

Anyway, I guess everyone has heard about results coming out on friday, for real. I am tempted to wear shorts because there is no need for me to dress up. It would be really sad if my seats to my left and right are empty, and I'm the only one left sitting there. Sighhhhhhh ):

Start of a new month again and the workload's slightly heavier, as usual. I really worked my ass off today and I was so tired at the end of the day. Only two weeks more! Mixed feelings :/

I've been learning a bit of jap from Cliffy! How exciting. Heehee next time when I make new friends, I'll be like "do you know, I'm from Japan" blahblah, or maybe even Korea. I wanna learn everything! :D But then again, long way to go hurhurhur.

Whooo I really love songs from Wesley (: Really all damn nice! Some people... Send songs to them they don't even bother to hear. ): So hurt. Sobsob. SIGH. The world is so cruel.. Ice cream where are you?

XOXO

' 12:24 AM

#752

Please Shine - We Shot The Moon

One of my current favourites. (:

Black & White last night was awesome awesome awesome! So good and so talented. I'm so glad I went. (: Zouk after, but Yixuan Enshen & I couldn't get a bloody cab for the longest time so by the time we reached, Phuture tickets were sold out and so we went Zouk instead since Lixin Sheryl Kai Yanxun already got in. Which SUCKED because they were playing TRANCE. -_- Slacked till 3.30am then got into Phuture for a sad half an hour ): Hurhur and when I got my phone my whole family was calling and messaging me asking if I was even going home. Sigh, the life of a girl.

My sleeping cycle is currently very screwed and I'm hungry hungry hungry even though I ate the whole day away. I WANT ICE CREAM.

XOXO