i love you , boy

Wednesday, August 29, 2007 ' 5:56 AM

This is for Pam (and any one of you who feel down and depressed):
(Joanna if you read my blog this is for you too)

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns
As everyone of us sometimes learns
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out
Don't give up, though the pace seems slow
You might succeed with another blow.

Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt
And you never can tell how close you are
It may be near when it seems afar
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
It's when things seem worst that you mustn't quit.

Mandy showed this to me, about 2 weeks back, when I was really unhappy and stressed out. But I didn't check my lj until recently, sorry babe! I really want to say thank you for the support you've given me since start of year, because without your encouragement, I think my life would have been so much worse (: But you know, your words really make me smile! You always manage to cheer me up, but like in a sort of more unique way you know. Haha. Like the poem/lyrics you showed me up there? It worked, I was much happier after reading it. Bottomline is I love you a lot Mandy Oeni! Hope to see you on Friday :D

Yup, so Pam, I might not be good with words and encouragements, but I really hope you will cheer up, don't think about stuff too much. And you can always always talk to me if you want to. I'll be there I promise. Don't always fear for the worst alright? It might not be that bad. I love you Pam don't be sad (:

I hope Jo sees this, CHEER UP MY DEAR! You can always call me if you need to talk. Don't cry to yourself, cry to me! (:

XOXO

Saturday, August 25, 2007 ' 6:51 PM

Someday I might know in my heart.

Your Life is 58% Perfect

Your life is pretty normal - sometimes great, sometimes not so great. You have a lot of good stuff going on. Your life may be more perfect than you realize.

How perfect is your life?

Okay my life is not bad. I have a great family. My mum is willing to pay for my expenses. My dad fetches me to school every morning. I have food on my plate for every meal. My friends are awesome! :D I know my life is good already (:

Tuition today was fun! I like tuitions, as strange as it may sound. But don't you like it when you end a studying session with brand new knowledge? I know I do, that's why I really adore tuition lessons. Okay so maybe adore is too strong a word, but you get my point.

Watched another two episodes of Desperate Housewives again. Yay Stef I'm done with the first disc! Finally right. Haha I don't think I'll take 7 months like with Amelia's Prison Break. Since holidays are kinda coming soon.

It's Yixuan's and Gavin's birthday tomorrow! And Cat's on Monday. I'm going out together with some SA6 classmates tomorrow to celebrate, hahaha how fun. I hope I can meet Gavin too, but lunch is already taken up, and I've tuition at dinner time. Morning I'm going to my Granny's house to pray to... either my beloved Grandfather, or the Gods. Don't know which.

Okay, gotta go now to study chemistry! Study hard fellas.

XOXO

' 12:50 AM

I'll give my all for your love tonight.

Wow I just watched Battle Royale, for the third time. I just couldn't resist, Tatsuya Fujiwara is love. Actually I was just harmlessly watching Power Rangers with Aaron, then I looked here looked there, and when I saw the title, I just had to click on it! Haha. Guys, wanna watch movies, TV shows, cartoons online for free?

Just go to this website: http://www12.alluc.org/alluc/index.php

Many many choices available (:

Oh I watched two episodes of Desperate Housewives too, I feel so... guilty for not doing work.

Anyway, school. Hahaha I finally got above 40 for one of the GP package tests. 42/50 for this one. The previous three I got marks ranging from 27 to 38 ): I marked Jiayi's paper, and actually I wanted to help him score higher. But I couldn't do anything because EVERYTHING was filled up, and most of his answers were right. He got 45/50, sigh I hate him for being smart. ):

Which reminds me, I bought this very cute halloween glo-stick for Felicia on Wednesday when I was with the bowlers at Daiso two days ago. When I saw it, I thought of Felicia immediately, she and Jiayi, childish spell-casting clowns =_=

Anyway I thought it would make a great wand, so I got it for her! I really wanted to give it to her on Thursday, but stupid Elvin was like, "Can you give it to Felicia on Friday instead. I'm ponning school tomorrow, but I really wanna see the look on her face when you give it to her."

I how nice you tell me. I really waited just for Elvin lah.

You guys should have seen the look on Felicia's face! It was priceless, timeless, and retarded at its best. HAHA. But I'm really glad she liked it if not I'll feel so sad hahahaha (: Heee next time if they're still on sale I'll get another one for her! And maybe one for Jiayi too. They're so deprived.

Justine and I spent the last 20 minutes of PW lecture watching The Simpsons on Titi's ipod! Super funny haha I love Simpsons! Thank you Titi :D I felt kind of bad because he left school without his ipod, but we passed it to Shawn Lai to pass to him tomorrow. But haha, a bit only. Ah Ti how nice! (:

Stayed back after school together with Justine and Felicia to study. Supposed to, until Stefanie and Fairuz came to sit together with us. Then I had to walk the busy bird to her bus stop because she used emotional blackmail on me. Haha, okay kidding (: I love you cheeeeeep.

Then! After I came back, I saw Joanna and Nicholas, so being the friendly me (: I went to talk to them. Jo looked troubled so I talked to her. Haha it's nice to catch up. In the end she went to tuition late, oops. Nicholas went off for frisbee and when he came back we were STILL at the void deck, haha should have seen his expression.

Nicholas had CIP meeting so we said our goodbyes, met Xavier. He and his classmates were going to bowl to train for College Bowl, haha such hardworking dudes who know how to set their priorities right, I like them (:

Sent Jo off to the road then I went back, finally to study yay! (:

But guess what? When I got there Justine and Felicia were busy chatting away. Tsk! Seriously they stay back to talk or study ah. Huiting shakes her head in disapproval. And Fairuz also decided to go home, tsktsk again. Not hardworking, must learn from me (:

Hahaha then we all left school because Felicia had piano. We all had so much fun in the bus. But those two were so embarrassing me, I can't believe I had to sit beside and behind them 0_0

Bus ride was soo fun today though, love my friends! :D

XOXO

Thursday, August 23, 2007 ' 10:07 PM

Haha! This is quite funny. Something about ministers caught sleeping during the NDP speech. View it here: http://www.mrbrown.com/blog/2007/08/ministers-deep-.html

Everyone is moody moody moody. I guess it's inevitable when everyone is stressed out about studies, then when something bad out of nowhere intrudes, it's quite hard to stay happy eh.

Anyway I'm happier today! Justine is back and she brought Dunkin' Donuts to school for all of us (:

I chilled with Sheryl during my loooong chinese break today! Hahaha it's very fun talking to her, her comments are like, classic. Love her <3>

Then I had a talk with dear Amelia at the bleaches after Sheryl left for lessons. Don't be so distraught okay! I'm always here for you. Although the geographical location was far from ideal D: Hahaha, but for you I can bear with all that (:

I have to find an econs article, finish up my econs essay, do math tutorial 18, and do physics tuition homework. What a boring life! Haha you know I was so tired yesterday, that when I reached home I sat down immediately on the nearest armchair. Then.... I fell asleep. With shoes, uniform, bag all. I amaze myself sometimes.

XOXO

Tuesday, August 21, 2007 ' 9:42 PM

When everything else is so au fait

Today is my dear mummy's birthday.

Happy birthday Mummy! I love you! <3

What a tiring day. Only two breaks in the day. But omg, tomorrow will probably be worst. GP essay first thing in the morning, and I haven't done my outline yet. But wait, I'm not even sure I want to stick to question one. :/

Chemistry test!!! I really hate to say this, but I seriously think I'm going to fail this one. Oh no ): Gahhh.

I have to modify my EoM again, by tonight, so much work D: I really hate doing EoM. I just have no idea what to do. Arrghhh I HATE PW. SO. MUCH. At this moment I just want to take a dagger and stab my pillow a million times. It is so revolting, I don't know how I'm going to get through PW. I feel like I'm a liability to my group.

Okay, PW angered me till I have no mood to blog anymore. Goodbye.

P.S. Check out this band called Her Liquor, Alicia (my secondary school friend!)'s friend is in it. It's really not bad eh, honestly in my own opinion. (: So please support them (haha I don't know how. Just go watch the videos and REMEMBER THE NAME)

XOXO

Monday, August 20, 2007 ' 11:14 PM

Well that would be enough, until the end of time.

I love songs by Justin Timberlake. This song is like, what many people would describe as boring, slow and mellow and unexciting. But it's so nice! It's a perfect song, suitable to be played anywhere. When I'm studying, when I'm using the computer, when I'm going to sleep, when I'm on the bus, when I'm stoning. So versatile.

Haha okay I don't know, I haven't really found anyone who shares the same taste as me for songs.

I was just telling Jeco and Joan today, luckily the thief didn't steal my Zen. My life would be worse than hell if I can't listen to my songs, I love my MP3 player (:

Zzzzzzz I am so so tired. I reached home at around 9.45pm, and spent one hour eating dinner while watching Desperate Housewives. Arrgh I want to sleep.

School without Justine today was quieter than usual, of course. Bernice was quick to point that out. Hahaha.

And we were like talking about Pam's vulgarities, like when she was a baby she probably already started cursing. She and her F words, tsktsk.

I spent so much money on food today. I'm such a pig!

Econs SSP was horrible today, I was sleeping half the time away, haha! Although I got to sit with absoawesome Stef (yay!) and she was busy designing our open house duty roster. Spending time with fly is so fun :D

Okay very tired my friends, I want to go sleep, goodnight.

XOXO

Sunday, August 19, 2007 ' 9:01 PM

Democracy VS Capitalism? Hello can I have french fries please.

I am going to sleep in one hours time. But, I have done so little work I'm so ashamed of myself. Omg yeah I know I'm so bad at managing time ): My brother said to my mum,"she's more intelligent than me, but that girl just doesn't know how to manage her time and she doesn't know what she wants!" What I want? A world of lollipops and sour plum bubble teas and listening to classic songs like Love Is All Around all day long (: Oh and not forgetting the TV shows! I want to watch Desperate Housewives nowwwwwwwww.

I hate school boo. I want more time.

Oh yes, I want to thank my absolovely friends Amelia Stefanie Lixin and Vic for helping me share the cost of the $60 college bowl money which was stolen from me last week.

THANK YOUUUU MY FRIENDS <3

XOXO

Saturday, August 18, 2007 ' 2:42 PM

When the world has dealt its cards

Andy let us listen to an awesome acoustic cover of Rihanna's Umbrella some days ago. You should hear it, I swear Marie Digby is a star ~~waiting to be discovered~~ already discovered.

Okay, anyway, it was Jessica's birthday yesterday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SENG! Sorry we didn't celebrate, next time okay my dear, now 158 all of us are quite busy I suppose. Next time! (:

And, Christina and Sarah flew to New York, and I think Chicago? respectively. Sigh I don't know when is the next time I can see Christina. Sarah will be next June, and that is quite long! ):

Germaine and Justine flew off today too. Germaine, off to Italy for her scholarship. That girl finally decides to pursue something which she should have done right from the beginning. She has the ability to, and the rest of us, we can only watch. Hahahha. I have a feeling she'll make it big, she's just so good at everything.

Justine, her golf competition! I'll miss her terribly ): No more bus rides home together for one week! Okay, all the best to her :D

I cut my hair together with Justine and Felicia yesterday. Boo I think my fringe's too short. But Felicia and Amelia thinks I look better. Haha oh well, Felicia's bangs are too short again, just like at the end of May, HAHAHA. She looks even more like a little girl, poor her she's so traumatised she says everyone is going to laugh at her in school, especially Titi! HAHAHA. But she's so cute lah anyway (: Don't worry Felicia I still love you! :D

Okay, loads of work to do. Btw, I know I'm slow but I just discovered the existence of awesome young talents like Bianca Ryan and Charice Pempengco. They have an unbelievable voice, for their age. If only I have their talent ):

XOXO

Wednesday, August 15, 2007 ' 1:57 AM

A BAY BAY

HAHAHAHA you know this song titled A Bay Bay by Hurricane Chris, it's damn funny because throughout the whole song you just keep hearing aye bay bay in the background, and it sounds damn retarded! You can hear the song here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ySbXw8AHlKM

Okay I'm sorta doing my open house booth proposal now, only I keep getting distracted by songs and stuff.

Econs test today was extremely bad, and... I really don't know what to say anymore. My dear friends, sorry if I wasn't talking to you very nicely at certain times of the day, throughout the week. I know I've been crankier and I probably pulled a longer face than I've ever did since the start of this year, but please bear with me. I reckon it's just the stress getting to me, my moodswings aren't usually so bad. But also it's because I'm so tired. Tired to even pull a smile, I know that sounds ridiculous but, that was really how I felt for the entire day. Really sorry alright.

Students taking chinese have a mock test tomorrow, good luck guys! (:

XOXO

Monday, August 13, 2007 ' 9:53 PM

AYO Technology.

Don't dismiss it as just another Wu Mao production, Justin Timberlake is the shit yo.
Warning: Gangsta!

I should solemnly slap myself for shamelessly blog-hopping, when I have a seemingly endless mountain of work waiting to be completed under the scratches of my worn out pen.

Anyhow, I'm glad my new SIM card arrived a few hours ago. I can resume the use of my old number, but I've lost a lot of important numbers. Hah, guess I've got to ask around again.

Math test today was... more challenging than I expected it to be. I guess, this counts for another fail. I really worked hard for this, though. But I'm used to a less than proportionate result (economics coming into use). Unfortunately I failed my latest GP essay, so I'mma rewrite it.

My To-Do list is half a page long. Which reminds me.

This morning school gave us a lecture on our studying methods according to our MBTI personality profile. Introverts were separated from extroverts, but basically the content taught to both were the same. Only the lecturers, HAHAHA. A hell of a difference.

Btw, if you guys haven't guessed yet, I'm an introvert (:

Oh well, so you guys don't believe me. It's okay, I have my moments of exciting outbursts, but I also have my exceedingly insular days. Let me explain, yo. When I did the test, I got 50-50. Half introverted and half extroverted. Only the instructions told us to put as introvert in the event of a 50%, so yeah.

How exciting, now I'm off to study econs, goodbye Abuelitas.

XOXO

Sunday, August 12, 2007 ' 6:05 PM

Get down, get down, and move it all around.

Listening to: Get Down (You're The One For Me) - Backstreet Boys

OMG I'm doing my math TYS now and am I screwed or what. I've only done like one and a half pages worth of questions, and I don't know how to do half of them! And and and, I just realised I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FIND THE POINT OF INFLEXION, whatever that is.

Please tell me that ain't tested!

I sad sad ): So much work to do, and all I've done over the weekend, is math. The only saving grace, is that I completed my math holiday worksheet thing Mdm Shih gave us. Haha, GGXX.

[Updated at 12am the next day]
Sigh. GGXX indeed. I've only completed 2 things out of my 14 on my checklist. Omg, I only watched one episode of Prison Break during the weekend okay. That's really very little, in the span of 2 days. I've mainly economics and physics stuff to do now. Booooooo.

I learnt to trust only myself.

XOXO

Saturday, August 11, 2007 ' 9:40 PM

You either stand or you fall.

Yesterday was farewell outing for Sarah, with Xiuru and Yujia. We met up in town in the afternoon to catch Rush Hour 3. Hahaha super funny! Everyone should go catch it.

It sucks not having my phone with me. I feel like a beggar, when I have to ask strangers to lend me their phone to make a phonecall. I asked this middle aged man, and he kept asking me,"local call?" I kept saying yes yes local call! Then he asked his wife, but they were meanies! The wife was like,"She can use the public payphone what!" And I was like "Oh okay ):"

Hmmph I asked the ticketing lady whether there were any payphones in cineleisure, she said she didn't think so, but she immediately whipped out her phone and lent hers to me. Young people are always the best, adults have NO compassion. Schools should teach them CME man, what's the use of adults going to church if they are so stingy with trust.

We went to hang out in Starbucks, but after a while Sarah had to go off to work. We sent her off to the taxi stand, and sooo, we'll only see her next June. Oh man ): The three of us went to Heeren and window shopped. I met Weeyong Shawn and Gavin there too. They went off to get gifts for Christina and I continued walking around with XR and YJ. Justine came to join us soon, then after a while more, XR and YJ left, and I joined the rest, and shortly after we left for Holland V.

We all met there, and we had farewell dinner for Christina, altogether me, Justine, Karen, Carey, Weeyong, Shawn, Andy, Gavin at Swensen's. We went to the second floor and for quite a long time we had the whole level to ourselves. The guys were so noisy, and I'm quite sure the waitresses were laughing at Shawn, especially! Those clowns.

Karen!

Hahaha paparazzi!

We just sort of improvised this shot, haha.

Candid shots!

SHAWN HOW UNGLAM.

Christina I'll miss you soooo much ):

Twins and Shawn. Justine's ambition is to get into every picture somehow, heh heh.

PAPARAZZI

We so colourful, cooliozz. Haha the ~~guys~~animals look retarded -.-

XOXO

Friday, August 10, 2007 ' 11:03 PM

Spiderpig, spiderpig. Does whatever a spiderpig does.

Okay, pictures from yesterday! NDP viewed from Ritz Carlton. We owe it all to Michelle Teo, whose father is chair exco of the entire NDP thing. Coolios right.

There I told you. Awesome view!

Fire curtain, which was activated at the wrong time, Michelle says. She watched the entire parade four times already, so she knows when should what come about.

Figure 8, but I forgot what does it represent!

Beautiful lights in the sky I say.

The things they call jellyfishes.

Fireworks, spectacular show. I recorded some parts of it. I think I'll upload it on youtube soon or something. Hahaha.

2/2 people who went for the gathering! I had a greaaat time last night! Love you guys! :D

Jessica and Rebecca

Me Rachel Germaine

The three jokers with the coolio head masks we got from the NDP funpacks!

Rebecca Jessica and Jana

Tsk. They wasted so much of my camera space, haha!

Omgzz Shona is still as retarded as ever! Haha! Posing around in the $168 bathrobe, I kid you not.

Shona and Jana the clowns.

So last night who was there? Me Michelle Olivia Rachel Adabelle Germaine Marie Shona Jana JessicaChung and Rebecca. Laughed till I coughed non-stop, and played bridge and bluff.

Hahaha then went to DXO. Had white wine and I didn't like it. We saw emo kids performing on stage and omg, it was simply noise. It was quite traumatising actually because there were these bunch of emo fans in front of the stage who had their arms joined from shoulder to shoulder and they were bobbing their heads incessantly. Okay, maybe bobbing isn't such an appropriate word, but like you know, imagine me sleeping, my head korking to the front but in a more violent fashion.

Afterwards we had food at the coffeeshop place next to DXO, then went back to the hotel, played I Never. Slept till 5am, me Cheong Jana woke up, cabbed home together. Last night was just fantastic, love my friends! They make my days worth living (:
Okay maybe this isn't all love joy and fun. This sucks, I can't talk to anyone about this. Not anyone suitable anyway. It's like she's all not very understanding, she even pushes me to do stuff if she gets the chance. Maybe she's not that bad lah, but I don't know. I can't seem to get a breather around here. And him is like, err, he has his own problems. And the other him, whole day busy with his girl. She? She's great, but we're just not tight enough, for that kind of talks, and him? Please. I hate this!

XOXO

' 11:56 AM

Thank you, for standing right by me.

THANK YOU GUYS FOR ALL THE SUPPORT AND ENCOURAGEMENT, I LOVE YOU GUYS, YOU'RE THE BEST! (:

I'm feeling better, not only because of my great friends here who try to cheer me up, but also cause our 2/2 get-together last night was AWESOME. And and I entered DXO for the first time HAHAHA. Not to club though, we went to this private party -- post parade party, for all the producers and high-flyers behind the NDP this year. Everything was simply awesome I tell you. I'll blog in more detail later. I'm going to meet Sarah Xiuru Yujia later, to have lunch and to catch a movie, I think likely Rush Hour 3. Then for dinner, chinese clique and Christina! (:

XOXO

Wednesday, August 08, 2007 ' 9:21 PM

Well well.

I am just, so, angry.

Nothing seems to be going my way these days.

One ACS today with all the ACS schools at queenstown stadium to celebrate National Day. Someone stole my money, and my handphone. I really don't need this, thank you. College bowl money inside, I lost about $70 or $80 altogether. Excellent, because mdm says I have to settle it by myself, it's my fault for losing it. The school authorities sounded so confident and reliable when they said to leave our bags all in one pile, "someone will look after them". What happened to all that mightiness when I told them I lost my money & phone? No one wanted to take responsibility, you could just see. Only Mr David Tan was willing to help, or rather he was the only one among the teachers who showed the slightest bit of concern, in one way or another.

I really can't take anymore of this. Shit just comes flying at me from everywhere, and I just can't shrug them off as part and parcel of life anymore, not when I do all that for goodwill, for sake of doing what I ought to do, and end up with a hard smack on my face at the end of the day.

Okay I brought my Right Word to school on Monday, because, I was like, trying to be a good student. And haha, I lost it. I left it somewhere, but I never found it back. And yesterday, errr. It was just bad. I hate school. Today, if I just ponned the whole thing, none of this shit would have happened. So you know, this question just crashes down on me like raindrops on a stormy day -- What for?

Sometimes, crying isn't enough. I shouldn't expect my parents to be all comforting like they used to be when I was younger. But, some form of understanding would be nice. Adults, they're the same. I guess, I'm not just the only one who has rough days.

And of course there always has to be some insensitive people who amazingly manage to bring you down further than you already are. In spite of attempts to just go with the flow and say something, they just, say insensitive stuff! I don't know how some people can be so duff, or maybe they don't care, maybe they're the kind who says what comes to mind. Sometimes it's good of course, but other times, things that are better left unsaid, are more or less already understood by everyone, and you don't have to point that out, thanks.

XOXO

Sunday, August 05, 2007 ' 9:55 PM

Isn't it lovely?

PEEEEEEEEEEEEEKTURES!!!

Hahaha Mandy is soooo cute here!