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Monday, May 07, 2007 ' 12:50 AM

I redid the colourgenics test simply because I felt like it. I think I'm currently infatuated with personality tests maybe.

You are seeking protection against anything which might seem to be exhausting you or tiring you out. It would appear that you are seeking a life of security and physical ease, free from any problem or disturbance.

You are a leader and possibly at this tine in a position of authority, but you are experiencing problems. You are not quite sure how to handle the present situation.

For some time now it would seem that you have been frustrated and emotionally inhibited. The circumstances which appear to be beyond your control are making it very difficult for you to develop the detached emotional attitude that you seek.

For some time now your hopes and expectations have been denied and because of this you are becoming withdrawn and introverted. Continual disappointment has manifested itself in you becoming both suspicious and restrained you have become withdrawn from others and have receded more and more into yourself. You seem to have lost your innate enthusiasm and imaginative nature, for fear that you may be carried away by it only to find that you are wasting your time. You are loath to trust people, as in the past your trust has been misplaced. You seem to be keeping yourself cautiously aloof from others. At this moment in time your attitude is to trust nobody - until they can prove themselves to you.

You are moody and depressed at this time but it will pass. All of your hopes and dreams seem to have gone astray and you are fearful of planning further for the future. Disappointment at the non fulfilment of your hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety and you try to escape from this by withdrawing into yourself. But that is not the answer. You have the power to succeed, believe in yourself... all is possible to him who believes.

You know what, I think this time the results, are really, quite accurate. Like all the trust and disappointment shit, I don't know what but yes I don't quite trust people anymore nowadays. Damn hurtful when they lie to you. Moody and depressed? A little? Don't know? But I do know that I just want a life without all the worry, but then again, who doesn't.

I finished watching Heroes episode 20 already, and it's quite confusing. Don't know if Claire survived that head sliced off thing. She probably didn't, since she didn't in the original fate during the cheerleading period. Oh well, have to wait till Wednesday for the next episode.

Met up with Jem Yixuan Tessa Elvin today (Sunday) at The Cathay to do our GPP. Nice meeting at 12.30pm. I reached at 12.40 and saw Jem and Samuel at the fountain. Jem and I went to Starbucks and sat there waiting for the rest to come. Yixuan said she arrived already, I called her and told her we were at Starbucks, and she was like "which starbucks? Is it the Wheelock one?" And I was like "YIXUAN YOU'RE NOT AT TOWN ARE YOU." Hahahaha that blur sotong. She finally arrived, said she took 4 buses from her house to get there. Because we were actually supposed to meet at the esplanade, but Jem changed location last minute and Yixuan was already on the bus there. Tessa arrived a few seconds after, and we started discussing. Elvin finally came at like 1.45pm. Stoned a lot and played lots of sudoku on my phone, hahaha but I think this meeting by far has been the most fruitful for me, in the sense that I contributed the most today. Each time Yixuan said something, Elvin and Jem would ask her to shut up HAHA. But Tessa and Elvin keep nagging at me to contribute because I never say much. Oops. I don't know, my mind is just, blank, most of the time. And I'm used to keeping my opinions (if any) to myself.

Anyway, after meeting, we separated ways. Jem went to the meridien to meet his friends and Tessa went off with Samuel to the esplanade. Samuel did something damn dumb I tell you. Hahahah he kicked off this plant off a bus stop seat, which belonged to a woman! Then she was like whining and whining, so embarrassing! They paid her $6 and ran off. HAHA. Silly Sam la, I mean like who would be so retarded to kick off a plant on a seat right. Damn funny.

Yeah and Yixuan and I went to Ben & Jerry's to meet Joan Jeco. Two other badmintion friends were there studying too. So we tried studying for a while but didn't really work of course. At least Yixuan finished one part of the chemical bonding tutorial though. We left to Plaza Singapura to have dinner, at Pastamania. Chatted la, and went home.

Okay it's 1.31am and I think I'm screwed again because my GP essay which I was supposed to hand up on Wednesday, only has one paragraph so far and I am damn lazy to squeeze anything out of my pathetic brain. Hmmph. Well talking to cheong just now lifted my spirits a little, thanks Cheong! (: I LOVE MY FRIENDS SO MUCH.

XOXO