i love you , boy

Wednesday, August 08, 2007 ' 9:21 PM

Well well.

I am just, so, angry.

Nothing seems to be going my way these days.

One ACS today with all the ACS schools at queenstown stadium to celebrate National Day. Someone stole my money, and my handphone. I really don't need this, thank you. College bowl money inside, I lost about $70 or $80 altogether. Excellent, because mdm says I have to settle it by myself, it's my fault for losing it. The school authorities sounded so confident and reliable when they said to leave our bags all in one pile, "someone will look after them". What happened to all that mightiness when I told them I lost my money & phone? No one wanted to take responsibility, you could just see. Only Mr David Tan was willing to help, or rather he was the only one among the teachers who showed the slightest bit of concern, in one way or another.

I really can't take anymore of this. Shit just comes flying at me from everywhere, and I just can't shrug them off as part and parcel of life anymore, not when I do all that for goodwill, for sake of doing what I ought to do, and end up with a hard smack on my face at the end of the day.

Okay I brought my Right Word to school on Monday, because, I was like, trying to be a good student. And haha, I lost it. I left it somewhere, but I never found it back. And yesterday, errr. It was just bad. I hate school. Today, if I just ponned the whole thing, none of this shit would have happened. So you know, this question just crashes down on me like raindrops on a stormy day -- What for?

Sometimes, crying isn't enough. I shouldn't expect my parents to be all comforting like they used to be when I was younger. But, some form of understanding would be nice. Adults, they're the same. I guess, I'm not just the only one who has rough days.

And of course there always has to be some insensitive people who amazingly manage to bring you down further than you already are. In spite of attempts to just go with the flow and say something, they just, say insensitive stuff! I don't know how some people can be so duff, or maybe they don't care, maybe they're the kind who says what comes to mind. Sometimes it's good of course, but other times, things that are better left unsaid, are more or less already understood by everyone, and you don't have to point that out, thanks.

XOXO