i love you , boy

Tuesday, December 11, 2007 ' 9:20 AM

I don't care

Listening to: Vulnerable by Secondhand Serenade

I love this song.

Haven't blogged in such a long time. I've got a whole ton of things to say, but I don't know how to phrase them. It's just a flurry of emotions I've got now, and I don't think I'm coping well with everything. I messed up everything so far, what's there to do to salvage the whole situation? The last episode of Gossip Girl came a quote which jolted me from my lackadaisical lifestyle.

As you get older, every choice that you make, defines who you're gonna turn into. So, rather than apologising to me, you need to look at yourself and ask if you like the person you're becoming.

Don't you think this is so true? I really hate the decisions I make in my life you know, like, not studying and everything. And a lot more. I wonder if I'm trying to rise above myself now, or, rise above others. I seriously have no idea what life holds for me right now. And, what about others? How, if I don't like what some of my friends are becoming. Sure everyone changes right. Theoretically, people would say, "oh you should talk to your friend about it, I'm sure a true friend will listen". Oh yeah, sure. Most cases I know don't really LISTEN. You tell them, what happens? Nothing. For years in my life, I've been so frustrated by the fact that so many of my friends don't take what I say seriously. Maybe it's the way I present it, maybe it's just my lack of aural persuasion. If you ask me for advice, the least you could do is to freaking listen to where I'm coming from, and not just brush off everything and ask another friend. I'm not as dumb as so many people think I am, at least, not in EQ. I can tell certain feelings you harbour towards me with your eyes, body language, and all that rubbish. So please, if you say it, mean it.

I've got to brush off my childish outlook on life, it is murdering my ability to rise above.

I don't know why I blogged all these too, it felt like some some volcano inside me erupted or something. Haha ahh I don't know I'm so confused. Nothing happened or anything, I miss all my friends so much. )':

XOXO