i love you , boy

Saturday, March 22, 2008 ' 9:29 PM

So long

Listening to: Hollywood's Not America by Ferras

After cheering up significantly from talking to Shuwen the night before, the morning was just horrible. Horrible, horrible, horrible. I reached Yakun the earliest, and so I waited there for the rest to arrive. But yet I begun crying again like some dog, alone at the table. I think the guy sitting beside me was really shocked or something.

I love Flory so much. She wrote a card for me. She actually specially bought a card and wrote such a touching letter to me. I am so thankful to have met her in the team, because I think, honestly, I might have like killed myself by now without her. Although we've only known each other for less than 3 months, she constantly gives me encouragement and keeps me going. Somehow. It's so cool, because we are exact opposites. I feel like I'm her junior. (:

Today is a bad day. It just keeps coming, all at once. )':

Now, I digress. Shuwen is such a sweet friend I swear! Although she may not know what stuff happens in my life, she actually makes an effort to message me and cheer me up! I'm so touched. I remember months ago when I cried really badly in school, she sent me a message:

"Hello huiting(: i bet you must be so shocked to see this! Anyway i saw you crying in the void deck today): well whatever it was, hope you're okay now! CHEER UP ^^"

And after I read her message I was internally crying because I was so touched. HAHA. Anyway the point of this is to say that beyond her bitchy demeanor, she's actually a super nice friend (: I'm sorry for being so so emo all the time friends. I don't believe in suppressing your tears though, it doesn't do you much good. So, out of four, three pillars in my life have collapsed, all in a span of 5 days. I am holding on to this last one for dear life, and I pray that I have strength to pull through. If only school wasn't such a drag.

Put your blue jeans back on girl
Go home

XOXO